So - I feel as though I had a productive night. I got home and we ate as a family. My husband mowed the lawn while the kids and I went outside. They "helped" me garden - ok - the helping didn't last long before they wanted to do something else. Amazing what a pitcher of water and two plastic cups can do! I got the gardens turned over and ready for some plants. Then I got some one on one with the little two. It was an enjoyable family night - while getting stuff done. I would catch myself when I went to yell - and took a deep breath and talked with them.
I am trying to stop the yelling - and start to focus on quality time with the family. As I am screaming at them - ok not screaming - but yelling - I think to myself - would I want my mother talking to me that way - ummm - the answer is no. It goes back to the basics - treat others as you would like to be treated - and I am starting with my kids - only makes sense - right!
Ok - enough for now - time to hang out with the husband now that I have 2.5 sleeping kids (the middle nutty one is "reading" books to herself)
Showing posts with label journey. Show all posts
Showing posts with label journey. Show all posts
Monday, June 21, 2010
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Typical Day
It is easier than I thought changing my lifestyle. It takes little time - it really does. So this morning we are busy getting ready. My almost 4 year old doesn't want to move fast. My 2 year old won't sit still, and the baby is still sleeping. Busy getting ready for work (late as usual - maybe I will work on that next). The dishwasher is full of clean dishes. So I drink my coffee - get the kids there drink. I am ready to walk out the door (OK - my super husband is putting the kids in the car for me), and I look at the sink - there are about 5 dishes in it. I flash forward to coming home tonight and seeing dirty dishes in my very clean kitchen. I hurry wash them - and I am putting the last one in the cupboard as my husband buckles in the last kid - how fast was that! Now I get to come home to my spotless kitchen and breath a nice sigh as I walk in.
AND - I walked into my office today - and I had a huge smile on my face - almost didn't recognize the place - everything had a home - and everything was in it's home. No cluttered work space - clean and ready to work! I know I will get picked on saying "You must have no work to do". But truth is - I feel so much more productive - and I know where everything is.
AND - I walked into my office today - and I had a huge smile on my face - almost didn't recognize the place - everything had a home - and everything was in it's home. No cluttered work space - clean and ready to work! I know I will get picked on saying "You must have no work to do". But truth is - I feel so much more productive - and I know where everything is.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Life is a journey – not a pre-written book
As I am trying to explore who I want to be, and what I want to do, I am looking at so many different avenues. As I mentioned earlier I found some great minimalist website. I find – with my personality – I want want want, more more more. It isn’t just material things, it is information too. I could spend days researching, and collecting. For what you ask – I have no idea! I just hate the thought that there is information out there that I don’t have or I don’t know. I have this compulsive behavior that I am trying to break free from.
I digress….
So I am implementing more minimalist behaviors. My house is thanking me (not my husband though! :) everything has a home it has to go to!) So I was planning on going to Yoga that day. And I got thinking about the minimalist mentality. And I got myself in a mini panic attack. I all the sudden didn’t want to go. I got home – I was in a bad mood. My dear husband looked at me and said – get dressed – you are going to yoga. I didn’t want to go – I should be home – I should be with the kids – I should be cleaning – I should be organizing – I should be – I should be – I should be……If you are a minimalist – you don’t just have minimal possessions, you have minimal commitments and minimal activities.
Reluctantly I get in my car with a scowl on my face and drive out to the Bikram Yoga class. I change walk into the 90+ degree room thinking – I should be home – I shouldn’t be here. I lay down still agitated. We start – I look around – this is only my 2nd class. I start doing the poses, before I know it the 90 minute class is over. I am doing my cool down breathing – and I go over the events in my head.
I am trying to find that perfect solution. I want to go to a site – and have them tell me exactly what to do. You know what – life is a journey, not a pre-written book. I am not going to find that perfect solution already out there that fits me. I shouldn’t have to conform to anything or anyone. I was able to push myself in my class. I was stretching my muscles, my organs, my mind. Just in my 2nd class I was able to do new poses that I wasn’t able to before. I felt longer, leaner. I was covered in sweat. I felt great! As I was walking to my car I texted my husband and thanked him for “forcing” me to go, and told him I loved him. I almost didn’t go because I was trying to conform myself to a lifestyle that I don’t really know anything about, and I am interpreting it to an extreme.
There is no perfect solution written for anyone out there. I don’t think I will stop looking, because each person’s journey can be a part of mine and can help guide me to where I want to go, and what I want to be. But – we all must write our own books. We have to pick and choose, and mold what we want our lives to be, not be told.
I digress….
So I am implementing more minimalist behaviors. My house is thanking me (not my husband though! :) everything has a home it has to go to!) So I was planning on going to Yoga that day. And I got thinking about the minimalist mentality. And I got myself in a mini panic attack. I all the sudden didn’t want to go. I got home – I was in a bad mood. My dear husband looked at me and said – get dressed – you are going to yoga. I didn’t want to go – I should be home – I should be with the kids – I should be cleaning – I should be organizing – I should be – I should be – I should be……If you are a minimalist – you don’t just have minimal possessions, you have minimal commitments and minimal activities.
Reluctantly I get in my car with a scowl on my face and drive out to the Bikram Yoga class. I change walk into the 90+ degree room thinking – I should be home – I shouldn’t be here. I lay down still agitated. We start – I look around – this is only my 2nd class. I start doing the poses, before I know it the 90 minute class is over. I am doing my cool down breathing – and I go over the events in my head.
I am trying to find that perfect solution. I want to go to a site – and have them tell me exactly what to do. You know what – life is a journey, not a pre-written book. I am not going to find that perfect solution already out there that fits me. I shouldn’t have to conform to anything or anyone. I was able to push myself in my class. I was stretching my muscles, my organs, my mind. Just in my 2nd class I was able to do new poses that I wasn’t able to before. I felt longer, leaner. I was covered in sweat. I felt great! As I was walking to my car I texted my husband and thanked him for “forcing” me to go, and told him I loved him. I almost didn’t go because I was trying to conform myself to a lifestyle that I don’t really know anything about, and I am interpreting it to an extreme.
There is no perfect solution written for anyone out there. I don’t think I will stop looking, because each person’s journey can be a part of mine and can help guide me to where I want to go, and what I want to be. But – we all must write our own books. We have to pick and choose, and mold what we want our lives to be, not be told.
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