So - I feel as though I had a productive night. I got home and we ate as a family. My husband mowed the lawn while the kids and I went outside. They "helped" me garden - ok - the helping didn't last long before they wanted to do something else. Amazing what a pitcher of water and two plastic cups can do! I got the gardens turned over and ready for some plants. Then I got some one on one with the little two. It was an enjoyable family night - while getting stuff done. I would catch myself when I went to yell - and took a deep breath and talked with them.
I am trying to stop the yelling - and start to focus on quality time with the family. As I am screaming at them - ok not screaming - but yelling - I think to myself - would I want my mother talking to me that way - ummm - the answer is no. It goes back to the basics - treat others as you would like to be treated - and I am starting with my kids - only makes sense - right!
Ok - enough for now - time to hang out with the husband now that I have 2.5 sleeping kids (the middle nutty one is "reading" books to herself)
Monday, June 21, 2010
Losing the "I wants"
I need to get back to writing. It free’s some of the craziness in my head – helps cleanse.
So as I am sitting here starting to feel anxious – I get overwhelmed. I am trying to pin point where this feeling is coming from. A few months back I found some great minimalist websites. They have been very enlightening. So I have my blog list – I read those – and then tons and tons of craft blogs. It’s funny when I got thinking about it – I will tell you – they don’t exactly go hand in hand.
While I watch these crafting blogs and read them I get antsy – I think – I want to do that. WOW – that person is so talented – but the worst – I NEED THAT. I saw one video – of a dream craft room. It was beautifully filled with SO MUCH STUFF. As I was watching it (don’t get me wrong – I would love a room like this), I got overwhelmed looking at it. I thought – with all that stuff – though beautifully organized – how would you know what you have? So I watched that and then read an article about knowing what all of your possessions are (if I find the site – I will link back to it – sorry – still getting to understand the blogging thing), and thought – how crazy is that – know everything that you own. But you know what – they were right! If it isn’t worth remembering that you own it – what is the point of having it. If you can’t sit there and say – I need this – and find it – it doesn’t mean a lot to you.
So the past few weeks I have been walking around saying I want I want I want. I go to the store and I buy. Finally I was standing in my kitchen and thought – what am I doing? I feel totally overwhelmed – a few weeks back while I was journeying through my minimalist sights I felt so much more at peace.
Then I thought “I want to want for the sake of needing, not need for the sake of wanting” Does that make sense? It makes sense in my head :) I want to need everything that walks through my door, instead of just wanting everything. I tell you – I have spent SO much money on crafting projects. I did a little shopping spree (shhh don’t tell my husband). You know what – I could probably only tell you one item I purchased – that is the item I wanted to complete a project with. That just goes to tell you what was needed vs. wanted.
Another site I read, she said buy for today – not for tomorrow. If you can’t walk out of a store knowing what the use is for the item, and plan on using it that day or the next – you probably don’t “need” it.
So as I journey forward (and I may have to be urged to stay on track), I want only what I need at home, and get rid of the “I wants”.
So as I am sitting here starting to feel anxious – I get overwhelmed. I am trying to pin point where this feeling is coming from. A few months back I found some great minimalist websites. They have been very enlightening. So I have my blog list – I read those – and then tons and tons of craft blogs. It’s funny when I got thinking about it – I will tell you – they don’t exactly go hand in hand.
While I watch these crafting blogs and read them I get antsy – I think – I want to do that. WOW – that person is so talented – but the worst – I NEED THAT. I saw one video – of a dream craft room. It was beautifully filled with SO MUCH STUFF. As I was watching it (don’t get me wrong – I would love a room like this), I got overwhelmed looking at it. I thought – with all that stuff – though beautifully organized – how would you know what you have? So I watched that and then read an article about knowing what all of your possessions are (if I find the site – I will link back to it – sorry – still getting to understand the blogging thing), and thought – how crazy is that – know everything that you own. But you know what – they were right! If it isn’t worth remembering that you own it – what is the point of having it. If you can’t sit there and say – I need this – and find it – it doesn’t mean a lot to you.
So the past few weeks I have been walking around saying I want I want I want. I go to the store and I buy. Finally I was standing in my kitchen and thought – what am I doing? I feel totally overwhelmed – a few weeks back while I was journeying through my minimalist sights I felt so much more at peace.
Then I thought “I want to want for the sake of needing, not need for the sake of wanting” Does that make sense? It makes sense in my head :) I want to need everything that walks through my door, instead of just wanting everything. I tell you – I have spent SO much money on crafting projects. I did a little shopping spree (shhh don’t tell my husband). You know what – I could probably only tell you one item I purchased – that is the item I wanted to complete a project with. That just goes to tell you what was needed vs. wanted.
Another site I read, she said buy for today – not for tomorrow. If you can’t walk out of a store knowing what the use is for the item, and plan on using it that day or the next – you probably don’t “need” it.
So as I journey forward (and I may have to be urged to stay on track), I want only what I need at home, and get rid of the “I wants”.
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