Friday, July 16, 2010

Kindness of others

It's the little things sometimes, that make a big difference.

On my way into work - I got to an intersection. I am trying to make a left on a busy road. So I am waiting...and as soon as I am clear one way - the line of traffic to make a left in front of me piles high - I sigh and figure - I will be here a while. Doesn't the first guy wave me through. I wanted to hug him. That simple gesture that didn't take him any time - made my day.

Don't minimize the little things in life that make a big difference.

Monday, June 21, 2010

Feeling Productive

So - I feel as though I had a productive night. I got home and we ate as a family. My husband mowed the lawn while the kids and I went outside. They "helped" me garden - ok - the helping didn't last long before they wanted to do something else. Amazing what a pitcher of water and two plastic cups can do! I got the gardens turned over and ready for some plants. Then I got some one on one with the little two. It was an enjoyable family night - while getting stuff done. I would catch myself when I went to yell - and took a deep breath and talked with them.

I am trying to stop the yelling - and start to focus on quality time with the family. As I am screaming at them - ok not screaming - but yelling - I think to myself - would I want my mother talking to me that way - ummm - the answer is no. It goes back to the basics - treat others as you would like to be treated - and I am starting with my kids - only makes sense - right!

Ok - enough for now - time to hang out with the husband now that I have 2.5 sleeping kids (the middle nutty one is "reading" books to herself)

Losing the "I wants"

I need to get back to writing. It free’s some of the craziness in my head – helps cleanse.

So as I am sitting here starting to feel anxious – I get overwhelmed. I am trying to pin point where this feeling is coming from. A few months back I found some great minimalist websites. They have been very enlightening. So I have my blog list – I read those – and then tons and tons of craft blogs. It’s funny when I got thinking about it – I will tell you – they don’t exactly go hand in hand.

While I watch these crafting blogs and read them I get antsy – I think – I want to do that. WOW – that person is so talented – but the worst – I NEED THAT. I saw one video – of a dream craft room. It was beautifully filled with SO MUCH STUFF. As I was watching it (don’t get me wrong – I would love a room like this), I got overwhelmed looking at it. I thought – with all that stuff – though beautifully organized – how would you know what you have? So I watched that and then read an article about knowing what all of your possessions are (if I find the site – I will link back to it – sorry – still getting to understand the blogging thing), and thought – how crazy is that – know everything that you own. But you know what – they were right! If it isn’t worth remembering that you own it – what is the point of having it. If you can’t sit there and say – I need this – and find it – it doesn’t mean a lot to you.

So the past few weeks I have been walking around saying I want I want I want. I go to the store and I buy. Finally I was standing in my kitchen and thought – what am I doing? I feel totally overwhelmed – a few weeks back while I was journeying through my minimalist sights I felt so much more at peace.

Then I thought “I want to want for the sake of needing, not need for the sake of wanting” Does that make sense? It makes sense in my head :) I want to need everything that walks through my door, instead of just wanting everything. I tell you – I have spent SO much money on crafting projects. I did a little shopping spree (shhh don’t tell my husband). You know what – I could probably only tell you one item I purchased – that is the item I wanted to complete a project with. That just goes to tell you what was needed vs. wanted.

Another site I read, she said buy for today – not for tomorrow. If you can’t walk out of a store knowing what the use is for the item, and plan on using it that day or the next – you probably don’t “need” it.
So as I journey forward (and I may have to be urged to stay on track), I want only what I need at home, and get rid of the “I wants”.

Thursday, May 6, 2010

My little man

So it has been a while since I wrote last – and it has been a busy week – well two.

My little boy had to go for surgery. It was a circumcision with a little extra. They had to wait until he was 6 months old because they had to put him under. It was so nerve wrecking. I can’t imagine all those parents that were at the hospital for other reasons. I was definitely thankful that it was only what I was in for. But – still – seeing him hooked up to all the tubes, and IV – and having him be “knocked out”, it was hard. Makes you count your blessings as a parent for healthy children!

On to my house – I need to get back on the horse. It is so hard with being busy at work – and my little ones scaring me with health concerns (though slight concerns – a lot to handle). When it is clean – it feels so much more peaceful! I still pull into my garage with a smile on my face! My kitchen is 90% clean every night – not as OCD as I once was. Our bedroom is still under construction. It will be a happy day when that is done.

I am still trying to figure out how I want this blog to evolve. Working mom, mom, organizing home. Regardless of what it becomes – I am a mom 1st and foremost – so it will be my ventures in that.

Thursday, April 29, 2010

Being a mother is hard!

I knew being a mother was not going to be easy – but I didn’t think it would be so heart wrenching!

My poor middle child – only 27 months – is making me sick. For the past week – she has been having these 20 minute zombie spells. She doesn’t want to eat – or drink – just sits and stares – almost like she is on the verge of tears. The daycare called me one day and said that if I had time to stop down. I went – she wouldn’t eat her lunch, refused to drink (she is my guzzler!) I walked in and she wouldn’t even look at me. I picked her up and she was almost lifeless. It took about 20 minutes for her to snap out of it and she was fine. We had lunch, hung out for my break – and she was good.

The next morning – I heard her at 6am – she was in the fetal position in the middle of her floor just whimpering. I have no idea how long she was like that. She can’t talk – so she couldn’t communicate what was wrong. 20 minutes – she was fine.

This has been going on for a few days. I was sick over it with worry. I finally called the Dr. They said there is a virus going around – and this could be attributed to that. I don’t know though. If it keeps up – I will take her in on Monday.

With all that being said – does the worry ever end? I look at my kids often and am overcome with the joy they have brought to my life. But times like this I look into the future – and can only see the worrying continue. As I talk to my mom – I realize – even when they are grown and out of the house – you never stop being a mother – and I guess worry is part of the job description. I guess if I didn’t worry that would not be normal.

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

A new Day

Each day I have been waking up and feeling so much more relaxed. I look around my house and breathe slowly – everything is coming along. Things have a home, and are where they should be. I can quickly find any item that I want. We spent Saturday cleaning the garage – even the girls helped while the baby slept. I now pull into the garage and smile. I come home from work, with the kids in the back – I open the garage door – and say look girls – and they get so excited because they helped. It is a nice feeling to come home too instead of a long day of work and seeing a mess.

I am even finding that I am spending so much more quality time with the kids. No more turning on the TV to keep them occupied. We are on the floor playing. We are building with blocks, reading books, playing with Barbie’s, our dollhouse, making use of those toys I did keep!

This is just the start of my journey to leading a more fulfilled life – and so far – so good. On the way to work I realized – life is what you make of it; you only have one to live. Why spend it sitting on the couch thinking of what you want to do, or what you could do, or how life is unfair because you have had no opportunities. Make your own! If you just sit around having life pass you by – you will never know what could have been. I am done sitting down and watching life pass me by. I am enjoying life and living it. Come and join me!

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Mommy moment

Before I went on the journey to simplify my life – I was a pack-rat mom :) The part that is still there mom! A Mom Of 3 (hence the name MO3).

So I thought I would reflect some entertaining mom stories.

My oldest daughter (almost 4), is such a cutie – and I am turning her into a clean freak! So – I said – do you want to clean the car with me – or should we do some crafts. Her response “Mommy – I have a better idea – 1st we can clean the car, then I can watch Ariel – then you can paint my nails”. She is such a girl! She is TO cute!

Ahh – and the two girls (4 and 2) are starting to fight. The younger one is getting pretty strong and is pulling her own weight. She wants what she wants – when she wants it….and pretty much won’t take no for an answer. (Trust me – 2 hours of screaming is proof!)

Then….my little man….what a bundle of joy he is. My husband looked over at me and smiled and said “You do realize he is keeping us sane right now” as the girls are screaming in the background.

The joys of motherhood!!! Am I right! Does it ever hit you that “Oh my gosh – I am a mom!” (Ok – if you are a dad reading – same question – just replace mom with dad).

Every now and then DH and I look at each other – look at our kids and chuckle saying – how did we get here. Weren’t we just married – now we have 3 kids in less than 4 years.

Time flies – cherish it!